The truth came out and it may be ugly. Turned out that Rachel is living with her boyfriend. That makes it even more hard case to crack. Darn. It's so sick, recalling that he's a distant cousin of hers, though by adoption. Let alone the age difference!

I don't know whether it's only me GR or it's superstition. I had lunch at Baltik Restaurant in the Passer Baroe area, after I've dropped the ol' tiger in Sandro's garage. I was ordering Nasi Capcai and Iced Lemon Tea. waiting for my food, I was considering whether to call Rachel or not, well, You know, too close for comfort issues. But this girl in front of me, maybe 5 years old, was wearing a white shirt with strawberry picture & text. Another sign? Instictively I called her. She was in the middle of packing. At 3 she will depart for Semarang. She will attend a discussion regarding "Eliana, Eliana" there.

"All the signposts in nature said You belong to me..."
- I Was Brought To My Senses, Sting

Kemarin seperti out of the blue tiba2 Mme. Ayu Bossard nelepon. Gue lagi suntuk-suruntuk uring-uringan nggak juntrung-suruntung (weladalah gue jadi kayak Seno Gumira Ajidarma). Muter2 lagi di Cikajang mau pulang juga nanggung, waktu itu jam 5.30 sore-an.Terus Ayu nelpon. Dia lagi disinu, udah 3 mg, mg depan pulang. Gue lgs ke rumahnya. Cerita2. And she had visions, which amplify my wishful thinking. Gue gak akan terlalu beberin di sini karena semua belum pasti. Yang mutlak hanya Allah SWT. Summary is Ayu encourages me to go for it.
Pulang dari Ayu 10.40, gue telpon Rachel, lagi di Pizza Hut PI. Gue nyusul ke situ. Ada Pak Hanson, ceweknya, Key, Radit, (duh gue lupa namanya yg biasa pegang Boom, sorry jack) and offcourse the ever-lovely Rachel Maryam Sayidina. Could see stars in her glimpse of stare. Said that she prefer Pizza Hut over Izzi Pizza because it's more intimate, can have private conversation here. Its not mere vain we all discussed about the movie "Signs". Starting to catch signs here and there.

Lihat Saja Nanti (This Is My Prayer)
Imel

Pertemuan kedua takkan pernah berakhir
Pertemuan berikutnya selalu terjadi

Talked to Rachel (pronounced Ra-khel as in bola be-kel) for a minute but felt relief somehow.

I was a total jerk. I go to Rachel's show for the second time in hope for meeting her. Like always, she's astounding. Then came aftershow coctail in the lobby. After shaking hands several VIP's hands, eventually I bumped into her. She seems happy, asking my opinion which show I liked best, the 1st night or tonight. My logic took over my feelings and I answered that the frist night she was penjajagan, but tonight she's great. What a correct answer. But too damn naive. I should said both were great. That was my first dumb mistake. The second one being too stiff and not warm. I was statued beside her, asking dumb stupid questions regarding the show. Stupidupidupid. I shoulda ask about her ulcer (maag), more personal matters. After awkwardness for 3 mins and she's cheering up the ITBs in front of her (Motuls & Co.) she excuse myself looking for her man. Damn, she was bete'd. I thought that I was having very little self esteem. That she preferred her now-status over me. But later tonite I've realized that that's because maybe I stiffened her. BUT then again maybe I was geer. But think of it: that long from the show's over until we was convened, why her man hadn't with her already. Fuck, I hate it when I made wrong split-seconds fuck ups.

Warning! Fucking with your hand can do serious damage to your self esteem!

Got to let it go (?)

Aku dan Kau (Cinta Rahasia)
Imel

Why is it Love that I feel for you?
How could you feel that love for me?
(But) I don't know if it's right or wrong
'Coz you belong to someone I know

Oh semua cerita ini biar hanya jadi cerita
Dan cinta ini tetap ada Jadi cinta rahasia
But let's keep the story alive

[When love is kept and locked
What would it turn to?
A shower of roses or a dose of poison?
It will not be something in between, though
So one's heart will always be clenched by fright
Until it learns to let go]

Hello Blog, it is certainly not goBlog. Today I was disoriented as always. Tried to escape from problems at hand which need to be solved. Instead I escapaded to "Strawberry" TV series outdoor set, on Asia Afrika, in one of the plants vendor. Rachel was there. But the BI article broke my heart. Well, that triggers my disorientation, but I quickly recovered and keep my cool. Ikut Rachel & kru yang lain ke launching album Imel "Di Ladang Stroberi" OST "Strawberry". When we arrived Imel and her band already played. Hell yeah, its Wewey on accoustic guitar, Rudy Aru on upright-bass, and Arry Aru on drums. (Reminds me of my jam with them, and with Reza Artamevia!) And I met a lot of people I recollected from different phase of my life. Dewi of RSD, offcourse Rudy-Arry-Wewey, Indra Tattoo, etc.

Commenting on the setlist Imel played with her band, it was damn good! And Imel is trully an entertainer. with her solid lounge to wedding experience, she made me and maybe other audience fall in love with Strawberry! well, maybe that's just me. The set enhanced my inner feelings. Sule, Rachel and others departed back to Senayan, but I stayed. I made a preliminary informal proposal for Strawberry's website development. When I was introduced to the boss of Indigo I had digested more than I can take and I gestured rather impolite. Better work on that next time.

At 6 I took a cab and head for Ratu Plaza. I am having a meeting to team up for Realta Kencana project with Pradi, Bullit & Didiek. It took place at Polaris.

Glad to curhat again!